Unless.

Unless the LORD builds the house,
its builders labor in vain.
Unless the LORD watches over the city,
the watchmen stand guard in vain.

In vain you rise early
and stay up late,
toiling for food to eat -
for he grants sleep to those he loves.

-Psalms 127:1-2.

Just came back from the retreat and Church today... this year, retreat felt different because its the first time i work directly with many of those in the group going down to train the youths... although its been gone through many times in my mind what to expect when such a big change takes place in my ministry area, i guess things have to be experienced before truly knowing what its like... i must say... it felt strange not to have familiar voices around me, familiar points of view and ways of doing things... i found myself wondering what was going on in the YA side and how they were doing......

Thank God, it wasn't exactly a negative feeling or any unhappiness... in fact it could have been bad if i wasnt sure that this is the path that God wants me to go... questions like... "er.. ok.. really ah.. God wants me to come here?" will be quite frequent if i had not settled it already.... so really thank God, i settled it on friday finally after 2 weeks of trying hard to have longer QT times and prayer... but i guess it shouldnt stop here, since there are many more issues in life and it'll always be so.... gotta keep keeping in step with Jesus.. :)

Yah.. well actually, another feeling that i got is a feeling of excitement.. like the hope that big things are going to happen, that God is going to use us to advance His kingdom, that so many brothers and sisters can really be united in love and fight for God together, that younger ones are coming up to join us on this journey, that life can be a big adventure that God has put us on, together... there's no other place in the world with such hope and love and peace and joy... =)

Soreally looking forward to working in the youth ministry, with the various people and "feeding God's sheep" in the coming 5 years.. at the same time, happy for and looking forward to seeing the YA ministry take off with God as our Leader...

On a different note, my computer died again just now... the desktop. the thing to thank God is, i'm typing on it now... think i didnt repair it this time. guess its better to say, "God repaired it..."? I tried two things when trying to repair: first one failed, second one made it worse. To put things simply, thought i had to spend ~$400 for a new processor at least.. then... i prayed and asked God for help, tried a different method, and it was revived. Back to normal again...

Think God is trying to tell me something thru this... I need to depend on Him more, need to know that i'm powerless to do anything alone, need to talk to Him more... not exactly feeling very happy today actually... sort of a bit lonely when i got home and also very tired... guess i need to talk to God and have a long chat with Him...

Ok, till next post, take care... :)